Another small rant for all you lovely readers.
My mother did something drastic yesterday. She used me as an example for the defenition of failure.
Let's review:
1 ) I broke my best friend's arm in primary school.
2 ) I bullied people in the second primary school.
3 ) I fucked around in high school.
4 ) I fucked up in college.
5 ) I landed myself a dead-end job with little pay.
6 ) I ran up about 1000 pound of debt.
7 ) I spent three years of my life doing... well... nothing. And I bitched about it throughout.
I am a bad person, and I can see why she said it.
On the other hand...
1 ) I have put up with her coming home and drinking herself stupid every night for the past 10 years.
2 ) I have saved 4 people's lives to date (Or three people, one tried to die twice)
3 ) I give people a shoulder to cry on.
4 ) At least I did get myself a job, in a community where getting a job is frowned on ("Why get a job when you get more money off the doll?").
5 ) I helped my brothers to stop getting bullied.
6 ) I helped her through two divorces.
7 ) I didn't say anything to her when;
A ) I caught her cheating on my step-father.
B ) I first found her smoking.
C ) I realised that she was an alcoholic.
D ) She spent six years criticizing me, every day.
8 ) I helped her sort out her business and get it up and running.
So failure? I think not. Personally, I'd say I'm more of a Modern_Hero than most people realise.
For all you people out there reading this, I want you to do something, especially for me.
Write down every good thing you have ever done with your life. Whether you're aged 14 or 40. Make it big, make it small, do it in biro, or carve it into a sculpture.
Then, go and make an A1 poster of that list.
Stick it up anywhere you like.
Whenever you look at it, think carefully about those things on that list, just so that you can remember.
Also remember that I'm not the only hero around here